I always do my spiritual studies right before bed. For one, I do not have time during the day (who does?) and I like to sleep on the ideas, theories, philosophies, histories and recipes I read about. I find that this way they enter my dreams and my dreams are where my ideas come.
Last night I was working on a new love incense and pouring over many ideas; serving, ashe', my shop, clients...
I am writing this for myself. Every now and then a spiritual worker must take inventory. What they do, what they do not do, what they will do in future circumstances. Spiritual workers must think A LOT about the future. What ripples will come from the work they have done. We have to think about what others can call us and come to us for. I have chosen to express these thoughts publicly here.
There is a strange give and take as a spiritual worker.
In the beginning, a new client makes a purchase because they heard about you from a friend or read your feedback, or maybe did an engine search. So they purchase an item and they find that when they worked it, it brought positive results, change, success. The key here is THEY worked it. Not me.
So they purchase more.
Clients, Hoodoos, Spiritual Workers, we all get an obsession. An obsession that if one item worked then another will work even better. Even when our problem has already been solved. I will admit it for us all because it is a truth and we have ALL done it.
You can not solve a problem MORE. It's like drying clothes in the dryer; once they're dry, they are dry. They can't get any more dry and your problems can't be solved more. If shit is better than it was before you began, then call it a day. Because who, among all of us, deserves things to be perfect? Not me.
We must learn to take what the Fates serve us up as a solution, a blessing, and be one our way. And if it didn't work, back off. Take some to think about your approach, get a new idea and plan of attack. Or maybe just let it run it's course and stop trying to control every area of your life. What is life without some challenges anyway? It isn't a life at all. Because when the challenges stop, so has your breath and the beating of your heart.
This is a hard lesson to teach clients but I have learned to do it. They get mad at me. Then they offer me more money...
Some, would buy and sell me by the pound if I let them.
I don't make promises and I don't take desperate money. If I do that, it is ALL on me and I don't make those kinds of wagers with the spirits and I don't live like that.
This may come as a surprise as I am labeled a "conjure woman" by many, but I don't WORK any spirits. They work WITH me, IF they so choose. It is always their choice-not mine and I don't conjure shit-they are all already there. It's like having a volunteer line and you ask "Who wants to help me with this job?" Then someone steps forward.
Now, I do work under evocations (note- not INvocations) of certain Saints but they still don't have to help if they don't want to.
One must establish a good working relationship, just as you do with your co-workers or employees. The only difference is that my co-workers can't be seen.
You provide a good environment, comfortable atmosphere, you pay them well, in offering and praise. You honor them, you give them altars. You make them happy. And we all know a happy person or a happy spirit, is always happy to help when asked.
I don't ask the names the of spirits who step forward to help. Obviously I am speaking of spirits who are not already familiar Saints. I don't want to be able to call them back if they served me particularly well. To learn their names, is to own a part of them. And I don't own no one, in life or spirit.
If I ask later and the same spirit steps up, that's fine, but I don't want to subconsciously over work a spirit because of the results they achieved for myself or a client. It's a personal rule and a good worker has personal rules.
I am a medium. I am an empty vessel between my clients and ashe'. I am a hollow being with an iron shell that holds and attempts to interpret the breathe of god into tools for my clients. And breathe is something, yet it is really nothing at all...
I am a medium in the medium of human skin and bones. I am neither small nor large. I am medium. I am right in the middle.
Ashe' ebbs and flows. In from the spirit, into those seeking help.
Stay on that line or you might lose yourself.
In that tide, in those waves, in other's highs and lows...
Their tides become yours, they own a piece of you, you know.
You work for them. For everything. You knew. And you gave.
You were called to serve, but not to be a slave.